i've had a bad day

i've had a bad day
these few days, i've thought alot. feels weird though. for the past few days, my paternal grandmother have stayed over in my house and a stay for another few weeks. it was jus a week ago that she had been thru an operation and aft tat, the docter diagnosed that she had 3rd-stage cancer with only a few years left to live. i was terrified, very terrified. i mean, i felt so bad. we only noticed abt her sickness when her cancer was already at the 3rd stage! if we would have paid more attention to her, things would have turned out to be better. i feel so miserable. this lady, have taken very good care of me since i was very young. unlike other grandmothers, she never scolds us and would always give us all sorts of things. we used to visit her once a week week when we were young but now probably once a month or even once in 3 months. even so, when she knew we were coming, she would cook or fav. food and packed them up for s to takeaway. however, she is also very pitiful. my paternal grandfather is one who always shouts and bullies her. normal woman would jus divorce or leave the man alone. however, my grandmother jus endured it, which is kind of amazing. his temper is really bad as he loves to shout at people. therefore i admire her alot. such a kind lady should not be punished with thiz type of illness. i feel that it's in justice done. right now, i jus hope that she pulls through and be strong and try to overcome tiz sickness.